souris_modeste

ANYBODY AWAKE/ONLINE/WHATEVER?

If so, please please fill out this survey for me, I need it to write my psychology research paper... I waited too long and now I have no info!! It would help me alot and only takes a second.

If anyone can fill this and send it to me I'd really, really, really appreciate it.


Just pretend you're filling out a myspace survey!

Come on guys! help me out here!

thank you!!







Age:

Gender :



The following are 20 common traits that may be desirable in a potential marriage partner. Please rate each from a scale of 1-5 (1 being unimportant or undesirable to 5 being very important or desirable) based on your personal values. There is a space below each trait for optional comments on why the trait is or is not valued by you. Thank you for your participation.



1.
Chastity (Lack of previous sexual intercourse) ______





2.
Physical Attraction _____





3.
Financially Stable _____





4.
Maturity ______





5.
Intelligence ______





6.
Good Health ______





7.
Age _____




8.
Ambition Towards Future _____





9.
Passion _____





10.
Exciting Personality ______





11.
Emotional Stability ______





12.
Religious ______





13.
Family-oriented ______






14.
Kind and Understanding ______






15.
Cleanliness/Good Hygiene ______






16.
Independence ______






17.
Race ______




18.
Political Views _____






19.
Moral Values ______





20.
Friendly/Sociable ______

I'm so glad the week is over, although Saturday is almost over too which is sad. Yesterday I had so many things to do and I absolutely begin to loathe Fridays. I had to wake up early for school, which we ended up doing absolutely nothing and I probably could have stayed home. Then I had to hurry up and get mine and Omar's writing contest entries ready and drive out to Southern and Dobson to turn them in.. although I doubt I'll win anything. We had to go buy a textbook for Omar, then I hurried back and tried to sleep a bit before work. After work I went out to dinner with Omar and it was pretty fun although I ate entirely too much. We played Mario Kart on the wii too, but I kind of sucked at it because I KEPT GETTING HIT BY THE STUPID BLUE SHELLS WITH WINGS!!!

This morning I had to go get my blood drawn for my doctor's appointment Monday. I have to do it every month before my appointment, but now I get accutane again which is pretty awesome. I came home and ate and then I hung around at home doing not much of anything. I finally slept from like 3 to 5 pm but it just made me sort of depressed, since I essentially wasted my Saturday. At the same time, I needed to relax really badly because I have been stressed out all week.

I don't know what I'm doing tonight. I'm hanging out with Omar but who knows what we'll do. I'm starving that's for sure.

This was a stupid, pointless update haha.

So my sister, Omar, and I decided impulsively to go to Universal Studios in LA. We bought the tickets, booked a room for a night at a motel 6, and off we went. We left Thursday morning and drove about 7 hours to finally get there. I was afraid our motel would be gross since it was so cheap but it was just as clean as any other hotel I've been to. Not to mention the location was awesome. We walked outside to the corner and we were on Hollywood Blvd where all the actors' stars are. We changed at the hotel and walked about a mile to the bus. We took a bus to the Universal City where it's located. We missed the shuttle and had to walk almost vertically uphill to the park, which was pretty hard. We get there at about 4:30 and the park closed at 6 and since it was a weekday there were virtually no lines. We first hit the House of Horrors. I thought it would be more of a creepy museum and boy was I wrong. They had the live actors who follow you and stuff (including fucking Chucky) and it was pitch black. At one point they had mirrors everywhere and this guy came up and growled right next to my ear so I took off running and slammed right into a mirror hahahahahah like a fucking caged bird. I am really bad with haunted houses. So i was crying and looking for an exit, I wanted out so bad, and since I was freaking out the actors targeted me and made it 100x worse. I don't think I'll ever go in a haunted house again, I'm too chicken.

Then we went to the new Simpsons ride which was fucking cool! Next was the Jurassic Park ride which was pretty stupid except for the actual drop in the raft, that was scary. We passed by an robot dinosaur which was in a broken raft eating a t-shirt so it would look like he had just killed someone and I was like "He ate that man!!" and everyone on the raft burst out laughing it was awesome haha. Then we went to the Mummy ride which turned out to be a high speed roller coaster in pitch black. You're just going along looking at the tomb and then literally BAM you're going like 100 miles an hour. Now I am a huge fucking chicken about roller coasters.. but this one was really fun. We ended up doing it 3 times haha. I think that was it for the first day, then we had to get back since the park was closing. We had no idea how to read the bus lines since none of us ride busses or knew where we were, so we finally decided to chance it and take the subway which was scary. I've never been in a subway station nor ridden one. We got to our destination within 5 minutes, it was cool. We walked down Hollywood Blvd looking at all the crazy hobos and tourists and looked at the stars. We got back the the hotel and rested, went back out walking and got pizza at a little italian place and watched TV until we fell asleep. We woke up the next morning, packed up, went walking along and taking pictures with the stars. We hit the Chinese Theater where all the crazies dress up. I was keeping my eye on Jason and Michael because I thought they were going to try to come scare me and instead a guy in a pirate suit jumps at me and scares me. I called him a motherfucker and we left, heh. We saw all these limos, police, and cameras going off. We stood there forever trying to figure out who was coming and finally found out it was Smokie Robinson so we left and checked out. We headed to the park and did the rest of the rides. Backdraft was a fire show, pretty lame though. The studios tour was cool I guess. Got to see all the sets. Saw the original set from War of the Worlds where the plane crashes and the city is destroyed. It was amazing. It was like a life size plane, and the set was still intact. Also Desperate Housewives was filming next to us, but I don't care about that show. Took pictures with Spongebob, Doc Brown, and Beetle Juice haha. He was the best. Terminator 3d ride/ show was pretty awesome and creepy. Drove home, got home around 2:30 am. It was very good times. This is the first time I've left the major AZ cities, let alone state, in about 10 years. We never go anywhere. I will post pictures soon once we develop 'em.

I finally took pictures of the kittens although they are much, much bigger and it's only been 5 days! Only a few more days until they open their eyes :)

( Meow, meow )

Sad, sad. Today was not a good day. One of the kittens that we called Grey got sick and stopped eating/breathing well and finally died this afternoon. I cried at work when Omar told me and my coworker asked me if I was okay so I told her what happened and she scoffed at me and said " Were you really that close to them?" It was kind of rude. Like, even if YOU think it's stupid, I wouldn't laugh if someone else felt so much about something that they cried.. obviously it meant something to me. People suck. We now have two kittens, and we took them to the vet today who said they are doing well and their momma is taking good care of them. I'm still worried. I wish I could fast forward time until they didn't need to drink the milk.. they're so fragile when they depend so much on the mom. I can't wait to bring my camera over and take pictures of their stages growing up. I never got to do that with my other cats, so I'm excited!

Work was pretty lame. I already hated being there, and then being sad over the kitten really ruined it so I just wanted to be home so badly. I'm extremely sore from Fitness class. That crazy lady works us to the bone. I may have shin splints, they really hurt.

Anyway now I have to prepare a discussion for psychology and get some ZzZ's, good night.

Meeko had her kittens today!!!! I am so excited! She had 5, but 2 were still born :( So now we have 3 adorable little kittens. I am so happy, I love being around when they get raised and I cannot wait until their tiny eyes open! I can't wait until they're old enough to hold and play with. It feels like time won't pass fast enough! Meeko is being an awesome mom, though. We had our doubts, she was such a brat before. Now we have to get her spayed so this doesn't happen again, heh.

Next week is Spring Break! I only work one day, and no school. It's amazing. We are going to California for a night or two, which will be fan fucking tastic. I haven't been on vacation in so long.

I got an A on my first speech and all A's on my Pysch homework. I got separate compliments from my public speaking and psych teacher telling me how good of a writer I am. It made me so happy. I know if you regularly read my journal, it comes off as the opposite but that's because I feel like I can relax and write... like shit. I am entering the college writing contest, too. Also excited to see where that goes! Scholarship money is the prize, which I could definitely use :)

Well I'm tired and have to work at 8 tomorrow. For 9 hours. 9 hours of children under 3 years old. gag.

Well I suppose it's been too long since I have updated but really, not too much has been going on. Not much that anyone would care to read. I guess one of the main events was going to Tucson last week. It was a nice mini-road trip with my sister, Omar, and Philip. We listened to good music and had a lot of laughs. Omar and Philip went to the Thursday concert. Originally my sister and I were planning on shopping around Tucson and then watching a movie on my computer in the car until they got out, but most everything was closed. Plus it was cold and there were a lot of homeless people around so we thought it probably wouldn't be the best idea. So instead we somehow managed to think it was a good idea to drive back out to Phoenix to pick up her (friend? boyfriend?) Matt. He is a semi-truck driver and was in town for the night. We hung out and ate and drove back to Tucson with him to pick the boys up then drove him back to the trucks and then back to Mesa. It was a very long day and then I went to bed at around 4am and had school at 8am which I skipped, of course. I did have to go to work though, and that sucked.

I also turn in my application tomorrow to get my Associates Degree. It's pretty awesome. I'm graduating college!! I'm literally just waiting on my finger print card to come in the mail and then I sit and rot on the waiting list for the nursing program until a spot opens up. Yeaaahhhh!!

Work is the same. Truly depressing. I decided the minute I make my last school payment, I'm leaving. So maybe a month or two more to save up, then I'm changing jobs. I'd honestly fucking rather work at Jack in the Box. This job makes me want to tear my hair out and/or cry every half hour, on the hour.

Which leads me into the main point of interest.............. MODEST MOUSE!

Last night was the show. We got there over an hour early and there was still already a decent line. We finally got in and I took off running to the front and since this was my 4th MM show, I knew exactly where Isaac would stand even though it wasn't set up yet and sure enough, I ended up against the gate directly in front of him. Amazing. I didn't care for Japanese Motors, but I really really really really loved Mimicking Birds. I had already been listening to them for awhile, but they sounded perfect live and their drummer was fucking hilarious. The lead singer's voice was so beautiful it gave me chills. It pissed me off though, I honestly have never been to a show with a ruder crowd. I was so embarrassed to be a part of them. You could hear the roar of them talking over the mimicking birds and people kept yelling rude comments at them like HURRY UP! or "you're not cool, you're only here because of Modest Mouse". It was so disappointing.  There was this psycho girl behind us who was drunk and she told us and the kids next to us that she was going to get in front of us no matter what and she proceeded to scratch and pinch my arm as hard as she could. I have a huge purple bruise on my arm now, but I didn't let her anywhere near us. She then bit Omar on his shoulder and left a huge teeth ring/purple bruise and broke some skin.. yeah.. she was that crazy. I got pretty mad at that so I flipped around and elbowed her in the face and she left us alone after that and everyone around us was fighting with her and asking security to remove her. When Modest Mouse finally came on, there was a huge surge, as expected, and we were absolutely CRUSHED against the gate. My chest is covered in bruises and weird red marks where little blood vessels were pinched. None of the other shows were this bad, it was annoying because it was just all of these assholes behind us thinking it would be cool to randomly head butt people and push us as hard as they could. Ugh, then the worst of it all happened and somebody fucking SPIT on Isaac! He was like "If you fucking spit on me again, I will come down there and kick your teeth in" and he looked so pissed off. Then, the rest of the show you could tell he was pissed. He didn't really interact with the crowd and didn't even look at us he just stared at the very back wall or closed his eyes. It was so fucking sad, I was soooo disappointed but I can't blame him for our fucking piece of shit crowd. I would be pissed too. People were even yelling rude things at Modest Mouse. Like why did they even fucking go?! But as far as the music goes and seeing Isaac again... I am still just completely amazed and happy at that. They played a really good set. I stayed behind and had to fight a whole bunch of huge sweaty guys to get a set list. Like this huge muscle guy literally hit me in the face with his arm and bent one of my fingers to get the set list away but luckily a nice guy on stage went and brought me the last one so I was pretty happy. I had to scream alot for it, haha Now I have 2 set lists, one drum stick, one picture, and one autographed ticket from Isaac all from different shows. I really wanted another picture but they didn't come out, probably because he was still mad. All in all, it wasn't the best MM show I have been too but seriously I can not NOT be happy when I see them. Yep, double negative. Now I've got bruises on either arm, knee, hip, and chest. Woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

I never get to do anything for Valentine's day. I never even really thought of it as a holiday or got excited about it in general. But this Valentines was the most amazing by far. I hope every year is just the same. Omar brought me roses and a WHOLE CHEESECAKE! hahaha and some perfume. We went to the zoo and it was amazing! I haven't been there since I was little, and going there made me feel little again. Especially when I saw the Ocelot :)

Then we went to Ichi Ban which is a Japanese restaurant where they cook everything at your table. We ended up waiting over 2 hours (and we even had reservations) but it was still fun just spending time with him.

I made him a really cheesy collage/poster with pictures of us and got him some Thursday tickets and hopefully he was actually surprised. So I get to go to Tucson on Thursday for the concert which is pretty cool. A mini road trip! Then Modest Mouse is less than a week afterwards! It's going to be amazing.

It's a 3 day weekend and I am so happy/relieved.

Does anyone listen to the Mimicking Birds? They're opening for MM. They are really, really good from what I have been listening to so yay.

I'm always tired. No matter how much sleep I get, I feel exhausted. I feel worn down, burned out. My head is always swimming, I always feel so anxious. I feel like there is no end in sight. No attainable goal. I absolutely hate my job, but it's so hard to find another. I can't quit because, obviously, I need this money. When I say hate, I mean absolutely loathe. I get depressed every morning I wake up for that job. It's sickening. I love school and I would much rather be spending my time and energy in that area. I'm always tired and I know Omar gets sick of it. I just lay around and want to sleep or watch t.v. and I know it must get so old. I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to get out of it when I'm always so busy. If I'm not at work, I'm at school. If I'm not doing that, I'm driving around back and forth. I wish I could be done with school so I could quit this miserable job. I don't think I'll ever have children. They're so draining.

I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!! I logged on Myspace last night and saw a bulletin that lit up my life.... Modest Mouse is touring only a few places again and one of them is HERE!!!! I just bought my tickets oh my god oh my god seriously nobody knows how much better this makes my life. What an amazing thing to look forward to!! (Haha, my user name means Modest Mouse in French). I'm obsessed!

So Sunday I got to go to Saguaro Lake with Omar and we packed a picnic. It was really nice out. A little cold for me, but then again I'm a big fan of the heat. There were not too many people. Some other kids with a puppy they were teaching how to swim... she came over and ate my subway sandwich hahaha. It was cute. Then we went hiking and I ran out of breath because I'm so out of shape haha.


I went and saw Twilight again yesterday with my sister since she's finally reading the books. God, I used to make fun of these books so bad and couldn't understand why anyone would like such sappy stuff. I decided to quit bad mouthing something I had not even tried.. and I read them.. and I really enjoyed them, heh. I ate my own words.

Today was my long day at work. They are always good for knocking me out 100% at night. I got off work at 5 and then I had a quick visit to Omar before I had to head out to Orchestra. Oh man... it was crazy. Everyone else had already gone the week before so I was just completely sight reading this music after THREE YEARS of not playing... and then my favorite part : sectionals. We broke off and all of the cellists were really good and had been playing as long or longer than me (except continually) so I felt so stupid. I had to ask so many questions and one of the songs was REALLY hard for them, so you can imagine how it would be to me. Part of me doesn't want to show my face there again... but it would be a challenge to actually work at it and get good again. I used to be good and it sucks basically starting all over again. It's something I really love though which might be a nice break in between the stresses of life.

I also went to aerobics with my sister and Omar. It's going to be a good class, I can tell. I already felt worked out after one day. I have to pick a small piece of poetry to recite in public speaking in the morning. God, why am I even awake? I have to be up for school at 7. Ew. I'm not a morning person, at all. Oh well.

I know I completely lacked in the department of updating this brand new journal. I constantly logged on the old one and read my friend's list, though. So much has been happening and all of it has been changing so rapidly that it has been tough to really update and condense it all. Let's see what I can think of...

Well I got a sore throat with a cough that got worse by the minute... and this was back in early December. It got so bad that any time I reclined, I could not breathe. Sleeping was almost impossible because I was coughing so bad. I either very badly bruised a rib or possibly fractured it during this. I mean, I cried any time I had to cough because it hurt so much. Then, suddenly in January I got even worse and it felt like someone was drilling inside my head. I finally went to the doctor which I originally didn't do because I wasn't sure if I had insurance or not. The doctor told me I had bronchitis and a sinus infection at the same time and then told me to go get a chest x-ray. I did and he called and said that my lungs had fluid in them. I took all my antibiotics which helped tremendously but I still continue to cough, and my rib still hurts. I'm supposed to go back to the doctor this week to see if the fluid has left yet. Which I'm pretty sure it hasn't because I'm still wheezing and coughing.

I started school this past week. I am taking Public Speaking ( with Leeann, yay!), Pyschology & Culture, Banned Books and Censorship, Keyboarding, Computers (both fluff classes for insurance), Aerobics, and I even joined the college orchestra with my sister. I rented a cello today. I am so fucking excited. I have played since the 4th grade but never owned my own cello so after I graduated (3 years ago) I had to stop playing. Nobody has any idea how happy it makes me to start something back up that I actually really enjoy.

I am still a pre-school teacher. I still really don't care for the job because it is so stressful dealing with these kids, but it is money.

The kitten we adopted about a month ago had her leg amputated (she was found with the leg completely limp and useless for unknown reasons). Her name is Spaghetti Cat, Sketti for short. She looks so cute hopping around on 3 legs. I adore the hell out of her.

I spend almost every single day with Omar and we have been nothing but happy. I have been very tired and stressed from work and school and getting up early all of the time, but things have been falling into place and becoming so much easier now that I'm following a better schedule. I'm so happy to be back into school full time. OH and I graduate with my Associate's in Arts at the end of this semester! I also get my fingerprint card in about a week so I can apply to the nursing program.

That's about it. FUN STUFF!

It's already 2009 which is only slightly depressing, but yet I feel like almost anything will be possible. I am signed up for school full time which will mean I will have health insurance. I am currently a teacher at a pre-school which is bearable but not anything I'd intend to do forever.

I have some new year's resolutions and I am anxious to make them happen considering I didn't even bother to make resolutions last year.

1) No absences from fitness class
2) Attempt to do school work in a timely fashion
3) Save money for once
4) Take pictures as often as possible to document life
5) Update this journal at least every other day
6) Use year-old gym membership for real
7) Try to make new, lasting friends
8) ^Be more outgoing ^
9) Stop eating like a garbage disposal
10) Be a good girlfriend
11) Do more things that make  me happy

So that's about it and I will do my best to keep them. Hopefully I can start posting pictures in here. One of my main goals right now is to save up and buy a nice SLR. I'm thinking either a Canon Rebel XTi or a Pentax K110. I got a new laptop for Christmas and one of my favorite things on earth is to edit photos so I can't wait for the camera.